So Many...

I was just looking at the website I wrote about yesterday where the names of babies who have died are written in the sand.
It struck me just how many children's names are there,
How many babies have died.
And there are always more,
Every day.
There are so many blogs like mine,
With stories of beautiful little ones gone too soon like Tikva.
So many.

How come I didn't know this happened before it happened to me?
Surely I must've known,
Because I always said my greatest hope was for healthy children.
But I never knew to wish, to hope for living children.
It never occurred to me that babies can die.
Here, in the first world.
It never occurred to me that my baby could die...
That my friend's baby could die.
Now both have happened.

I live in a different world now,
One where babies can die.

I scrolled down the website and read the names of all those babies,
Written in the sand.
I thought, These are all little people gone too soon.
They all have families longing for them, missing them,
Forever changed by them.

So many babies...